Why are you so serious? This is a game to have fun in, and you seem like you have no fun at all.
Here's an idea to eliminate the main reason for you not coming to the pvp server:
Since you obviously treat this game as a job, why not farm gold for the gold farmers, make $50, then come over? If your guild makes you feel like you are working, like you 'owe' them, like you should be so emo on the forums, then you need to get Giggity and leave!
If you really don't have an extra $50, and live in emo poverty, you really don't need to be on a game forum.
Anyone else that wants to come over for fun, let me know!